...comes from Jacquelyn, her nurse for the last few nights. She says these things usually get a lot worse before they get better.
As she has been in more sedation, she has seemed less responsive and there have been fewer of the moments that I know she's there. Earlier in the week she would squeeze my hand when I spoke or if something was bothering her.
I asked how much of this was more medication ("better living through chemistry" as Riza would say) and how much was deterioration. Jacquelyn said that she still does very well in her evaluations, and that the doctors and staff are confident that she still has what she has. "Hold up two fingers." "Three fingers," "point to the ceiling," "wiggle your toes" these all still work. And that is a good sign that she has them and has held on.
Patience was never my long suit but that's what's required here. The news really is still better than any would have expected; better than I expected last week.
Temperature and ICP are still problematic. They have stopped her rotation so as to not exacerbate the ICP, but that delays progress with her lungs. Always this vs. that. But I have absolute confidence in the staff and physicians over there.
And, yes, I am fine. Thanks for all the kind thoughts and deeds.